Back from the dead.

Well, hello! Long time, no post. I've been meaning to start writing on here again and I just end up doing something else. But tonight, I was out for beers with a friend, and we decided we should create a few goals and stick with them. Here are my goals.

1. Write a blog post at least three times a week.
2. Join a gym and work out at least three times a week.
3. Drink less (this needs to be improved on as a goal).

So I'm gonna do my damnedest to stick to those. I need some sort of way to busy myself all the time to avoid dealing with life. I'm beginning to feel stagnant again. For awhile, I had distractions by way of Zach. But I don't have that anymore. Which makes me realize that Fargo isn't the place for me and this life I'm trying to build for myself isn't going to work out here. Until I can move away, though, I need to find ways to avoid getting sucked into hopeless situations. Namely, I need to stop pretending things with Zach are going to become anything more than they are now, which is nothing. Less than nothing, really.

Toffee isn't too impressed with my faces.

Anyway, quick update on my life. It has been, like, two years since I blogged. John and I broke up. I had my fallopian tubes removed. I'm still living in Fargo. I got a dog! She is probably the best thing that has happened to me in a considerable amount of time. Her name is Toffee aka Toffmonster and she is so wonderful. I have changed jobs a few times and am currently the office manager of Spotlight Media, although I want to apply for a web editor position there. I'm feeling more and more disheartened each day, though, so I don't foresee that as part of my future.

I want to plan an adventure for myself. I need to get outta Fargo. I'm thinking Chicago for a weekend would be nice. I've never really traveled by myself, so that'll be its own adventure. I just need to break out of this funk that I've been in for, fuck, like, nine months. I feel like the last nine months have been a blur of drunken shenanigans and stupid drama.

I need something more. I can't keep living like this.