Life, love, stress and setbacks.

So I'm talking to my mama on Facebook right now. Originally, she messaged me about my profile picture, but that turned into a discussion about hotel reservations for my graduation. That then turned into a random comment about a badge she got on this gaming website she enjoys.

My mama tells me the most random shit on a daily basis. And as much as I think, "WTF?" when I get another text message from her about some asinine thing one of the cats did, if I didn't get those pointless texts messages, my life would be a little less worthwhile.

I've been realizing lately how great my life is. Not in a "I'm better than you" sort of way, but in a "things are seriously amazing and you should be thankful and appreciative" sort of way. I'm graduating from college in a few weeks. I've made some awesome friends that I'm sure I'll take away from this place. I feel totally comfortable in my skin, and that's something I haven't felt ever in my life. The last year and a half (roughly) was full of mistakes and growth, and while I wish I could change the outcome of some of those things, in the end, everything turned out okay.

I may not be with the person I thought I'd spend my life with, but that's okay. I've gotten to know more people as a result of that and I've gotten to know myself more intimately. I've learned things about myself and the things I want that I wouldn't have if I were still with him. And while the way that situation unfolded probably wasn't the best, I learned from it and I'm a better person for it.

My life may not be going down the path I would've thought when I began this foray into academia, but I can honestly say I'm happy with where I'm headed. Volunteering is going to be a much better fit for me than trying to find a career that provides me with financial security but no happiness.

Part of me wishes I could stay at this point in my life forever, because it's honestly the happiest I've ever been in my life. But I know that there is only more greatness to come, and if I stay where I am, I'll grow dissatisfied. I'm excited to embark on new journeys but it saddens me to leave this place. I know I have about seven weeks left so I shouldn't jump the gun, but it's a bittersweet realization to know that I'm finally going out into the world to be a real, live adult.

Let's hope I can handle it.